When Everything Seems Cloudy What is the Purpose of the Cherry Blossom Tree?

When everything seems cloudy what is the purpose of the cherry blossom tree? By: Amanda Crew (AKay) 3.11.2026

Is the beginning truly the beginning? Is every end a new beginning? Is every blossom on a cloudy day a sign of hope? Or are all the perspectives blending together to where I can't see the end from the begining any longer, nor the sun from the clouds, the grass from the dirt, or is there possibly a blended beauty to it all in the perspectives of the ones who have hope? That eventhough everything seems so dim, so blurred, so distant and separated by leaps and bounds. That maybe there really is no difference from the beginning and the ending towards a new beginning again.

Where, in the deepest moments of sorrow and horrific sadness, uncertainty, confusion, dissolusion, that a moment of hope and a blossom on the cherry blossom tree may spark just enough needed color in such a dark moment, that a breath may be had within the chest of the beholder of this perspective of a moment of beauty...

And within that breath, just maybe, the blossoms a new of a once bark ridden tree, may cause a beautiful foreground for the sky behind, which may be dark, yet cloudy, with different shades of greys and blues, then maybe the perspective migh move to the clouds of all shades, and even a sunrise of yellow hues, pinks, purples, and blues.

When everything seems hopeless, when everything is "cloudy" what is the purpose of the cherry blossom tree? Purposeful life to help ignite hope that ours continue. I used to use the expression a lot, that just as the sun will rise and the moon will rise, everyday is a new. I don't know how much I believe in that sentiment nor analogy.

However what I do stand on, believe in, hope for. Is that with each waking breath I allow myself to make choices. I may choose to drown in the darkest cloudiness of a raining sky, or I can pay attention to what the fuck I am really feeling, look around and possibly notice that an entire tree, practically seeming to bloom before my eyes is the most beautiful and stunning thing I have seen for today.

Was it there yesterday? I know the tree was, but I noticed not the blossoms because of my own misperceptions. However, today, no matter how fucking hard things are... I was actually stunned by it's beauty, that it allowed me a few tears for the absolute terrible things that are going on in my life.

Now, if I chose not to notice this purpose of the Cherry Blossom Tree, I could easily slip into hatred of everything terrible going on... But then, why have breath? Why try? Why not just slip into hatred for hatreds sake and be awful to self and everything?

For me, I don't want to be hateful eventhough I am hated and hurting. I don't want to dig up the roots of this stunning tree, nor pull off its petals just because I can. I'd rather admire what paintings there are naturally in this world, utilize tears and feelings, hold onto my sheer ability to be kind to self and others, look for and hope for the sunset and moonrise, say hi to puppies, and smile at random people, to help me walk through the literal day's of feelings of despair.

I won't say this is every day, because many day's I want to fight and scream and throw things, but if I can channel that rage into something else, through Art, Music, Playing Basketball, actually feeling my feelings, helping another, or allowing someone to help me. Then on day's like today. I can see the purpose within a Cherry Blossom Tree, remember how important the original story of such a tree was/is, cherish that such life can still sustain in this world.

And realize that there really is no separation from certain people and nature, just different layers of perception. And I don't mean no separation between all things, just no real separation between some feelings and perceptions of surroundings and if I choose to live in a world of hatred and darkness or one where I allow myself the choice to stay, be kind to self, and see things for what they really are, their importance, shallowness, kindness, hatred.

Make a proper decipheration of these things. And absolutely let go of the hatreds, ill-intentions of other, hidiodic's of this world. And absolutely cherish the flowers, people that matter, and of course keep falling in love with coffee every day. Eat properly, speak intentionally, learn with purpose, teach with intention however also listen, choose wisely for myself and those important to me, make intentional and purposeful decisions about the "superficial" and the weight it carries or doesn't. For example "what career" we choose, am I my career or the sum of my thoughts, intentions, kindness, perspective, actions? I'd rather be a combination of really admirable things like good music and perspective, than a "career named so and so".

I challenge others today to just look up, take 1 moment to look at anything different. Because I'm going through some things that I don't totally want to speak on but have to be some of the things that would not only make a person break, but a mother weep, a child become dispaired, and a me just devastated. So whatever the fuck you are going through, either hold your head up sometimes, or take a deep breath and know I hope it gets better. And if you don't want to, well today you kinda suck at life in my book.

However, if you are a hidiodic, well... I don't think I could ever say except to people like us, you are a drop in the bucket with no sound.

But for the people that understand. Keep understanding, because I swear I overstand, I stand beside, and I understand that shit is difficult, life seems unlivable at times, and fucking shit I want to break things to. However, I remain hopeful to continue to be stunned by the interpreted purpose's of things like a blossoming cherry blossom tree.

Also, I apologize to my Scholars for missing our meeting/class on Sunday I was not in a well way and will be honest when we have our call this week. If anyone wants I'll probably try to get a conference going Friday and hopefully Sunday.

One Love

Amanda